I’ll kick things off. Taking the goal of cumming off the table has shifted my body chemistry. I tend to be a little agitated internally when I want sex and can’t make it happen. Of course this is a self-sabotage to actually being able to cum.

What has changed? The stigma of masturbating has been removed. It seems right to masturbate and not cum. It’s pleasure with no shame. I have a more balanced, “take it or leave it” approach to sex. This has stymied my agitation.

Chiming in to provide feedback about what I did this week.

I’m living in lockdown Los Angeles without an adventurous female play partner. Moreover, I live with my family and we all share one bathroom. I’m having trouble finding the privacy necessary to do the solo exercises more than once or twice a week.

I did the solo exercise today, and after about 35 minutes I learned that I should go slower still. I used the grip suggested in the training. While engaging in the exercise, I mentally categorized a few very sensual experiences from my past. I assigned numbers (1-5) to the intensity and replayed them in my mind.

After each number, I visualized a microcosm orbit of sexual energy that progressively became more intense with each number. It was as if each experience was a step function in sexual energy. In fact, the energy kept increasing even when I circled around a second time through the experiences. During my second trip through, my solo exercise ended prematurely after about 35 minutes.

My release was way more intense than normal. I still stayed hard after the end for a longer period than usual. I also feel a lot more balanced.

My question for the group would be, how long should you engage in the solo exercise? What time frame generally works for you? I know that I can go longer than 35 minutes if I slow down.

At the beginning of this course, I started meditating daily on “my primal masculine” self. As the days have gone on, that has evolved somewhat as I mentally took it out for a stroll in different situations.  It has been threatened by bad guys, dealt with bad internal attitudes and beliefs, and now, it’s merging with my sexual energy.

Physically, it started with a glow, buzzing in my hara or tan tien. Then another glowing, buzzing showed up in my perineum and/or the base of my spine (coccyx).  The other day, I got another spot just above my belly button.  If I had to guess, my chakras are opening up from these meditations.

Interestingly, yesterday at the dog park, there were some very attractive women giving me big smiles.

I’m doing the Microcosmic Orbit for a few minutes a couple of times a day, and working on the first part of this week’s homework.  That is, slowing down and appreciating the beauty of the world.  It’s a lovely, quiet feeling and I can get into it quite quickly.

Now that our commie governor has reopened bars and restaurants, I plan to do part 2, dress up and hang with the cool kids.

You’re off to a good start guys!  Now keep it up — literally.

David, you are experiencing what I had intended for you (all).  The strength of your inadvertent orgasm is directly related to your edging practice.  Try not edging quite so close to orgasm until you get more experience and confidence with the method.  I am going to do your visualization exercise myself — nicely done!

Eric?  Keep going.  And yes, your body is re-awakening.  People will be attracted to you, and rightly so.  Now pass emotions to them through touch — it’s an advanced exercise.

When doing the microcosmic orbit during a sexual or arousing interaction, can you loop it through the other person? Is there a particular technique for doing this?

HeroHypno — yes, that was covered in class.  Remember my urging you to master solo work before jumping into multiple-person energy work.  How is that coming along?

Ok, on the whole microcosmic orbit thing…

Based on rewatching the Week 3 presentation, my understanding of the process is something like this:

1) Raise sexual energy using prescribed techniques
2) Circulate that energy up and around using microcosmic orbit
3) ???????
4) Profit!

The presentation basically said that circulating the high sexual energy using the microcosmic orbit would Make Things Happen. Now, I’ve done a bit of qigong and some tantra work before, so I’m familiar with the concept of meridians and chi and chakras and such. That said, that’s not how I’ve experienced things or not how I conceive of the world. I understand the idea of circulating energy as a visualization or concept, but where things are breaking down for me is that it’s just a visualization exercise.

I used to be interested in occult / esoteric / pagan / magick stuff, and one of the things I’ve learned over the years (not having ever practiced deeply) is that the various symbols / chants / etc are there to help focus the will in a specific direction to achieve a  specific aim. I see things like chakras / chi / meridians / etc in a similar way – as symbols or models to help direct your will and create change in a specific way. Thing is that I don’t really buy into or accept those models as “true”, and the symbols or concepts don’t really resonate with me. Thus, it’s difficult for me to grasp what I should be doing with this visualization of circulating energy, what effects I should be directing things towards or what I should be experiencing.

Now, if this is one of those “just do the thing as described and All Will Become Clear With Time”, then so be it. If there’s another way that would be helpful to approach the exercise, or another way to frame it / different set of symbols or model to use, then that would be appreciated.

I have another version of microscopic orbit that would be helpful to those that get blue balls or if you are close to ejaculation. When you are in pain from blue balls or close to ejaculation, clench your pc muscle (the muscle that can stop urination) then imagine that energy going up your spine around the top of your head and when that gets to your mouth, put your tongue to the top of your mouth. Then let the energy keep going down your body until it gets to your naval, then imagine storing it there. The release your pc muscle. If you still have pain or can’t stop ejacultiondo it again. You shouldn’t have to do it more than twice but you can do it as often as you want.

A couple of questions have come up for me during this homework:

During solo play, there are times I get a big energy rush up my spine and times I don’t.  For those of you who get one consistently, do you get it when you clench your PC muscles or is it unrelated to that?

Doing the Microcosmic Orbit without solo play, although I can imagine that the energy is going up and down my body and I can pretend that the energy level is going up, the reality is that I don’t feel that energy going up.  It feels the same regardless of how many times I cycle the orbit.  Anyone have some experience getting past a plateau like this?

During my “primal masculine self” meditations, I actually feel my energy increasing and flowing into parts of my body.  Wondering about increasing that energy and where to “store it” so I can feel it throughout the day.  I know this is vague, but I’m hoping someone can give me feedback on this.

Thanks,
Eric

Ok, a little late to the feedback but here it is. This one was more difficult than I expected, especially given that it should be fun from the outset but I noticed in the edging practice that a lot of bodily tensions were coming up that made it distracting and challenging to sustain a relaxed and playful state. Specifically my legs were prone to tensing up and getting restless which led to a lot of one step forward, one back dynamic, as I went from relaxed and enjoying sensations to trying to “get” somewhere or move away mentally from the moment to moment sensation. This really bugged me because it felt like a lot of the undercurrent of daily frustrations were all coming to the foreground during this exercise and made it a challenge to break out of that – especially once it seemed like my mind wanted to fixate on it and “solve it.” When things were flowing smoothly I felt great, relaxed and energetic, and the clarity at those moments seemed to be that I didn’t need to justify feeling good. When I was out of that state it became frustrating because I couldn’t “figure out” what I needed to do to let go. Since I that’s still the pattern that’s coming up I figure I just need to spend more time on it until something shifts.

I had an idea of raising sexual energy with my partner.

I decided to teach her the microcosmic orbit breathing technique then engaged in foreplay.

She didn’t have much comfort with me or the technique and reverted back to how we normally play which is sex ending in ejaculatory orgasm for me, and her using vibrator afterwards to orgasm.  Note I’ve hypnotized her in the past, however she wasn’t following my instruction and wanted to control the trance session leading to a less then desirable outcome, thus have a pattern of her being skeptical of me trying out new sexual techniques in the bedroom with her.

My question is should I simply forgo explaining sexual techniques to my GF, and just work on mastering solo energy play first then get her to participate at a later date?

Ended up combining my morning microcosmic orbit practice with some meditation and visualization exercises.  I kept asking questions like, “How can I double my masculine, sexual energy” and “What can I let go of to radically increase my energy flow?”

Happily, my subconscious provided me with a few parts of myself, you could call them, “subpersonalities” or “blocks” that had weird feelings and statements attached to them.  One was saying, “Ooooh, ooh, ooh!” continuously.  I let these parts go using the NLP visual squash technique.

Immediately noticed a big difference in the glow I felt in my body.  And suddenly, I could see and feel a rod of energy that starts at my perineum and projects forward out my cock.  You could call it an energetic hard-on.

And now, I feel very grounded and solid, as well as glowy.

Most interesting microcosmic orbit practice yet.

I am slowly getting the hang of this lesson. I am gone basically five days a week so wifey only gets to participate occasionally. Still, between my practice on the road, and taking her and making her understand slow and easy on the weekends things are moving in the right direction. And of course, I am loving being totally in charge and directing all the encounters.

It was through David Shade that I learned about Mark and now I combine the lessons learned and lead with masculine authority. It is tough when two dominants combine but I am exerting my influence over her and she is learning to submit as a feminine woman should.

I continue to work on my mindset as well as physically trying to make the microcosmic orbit more intense.

Limited success but still moving in the right direction. Solo practice is fine but would enjoy being home more often to put it into practice.

Lesson 8 added a lot more perspective and I am applying all the lessons learned.

Like how my life is changing for the better.

A